I just wanted to write. About anything. Just feelings and thoughts and anything.
Things seem to get better, but then the walls close in around me, just enough that I feel like I can't breathe. I know life could be much worse, and is for some people...but I can't help but feel held down.
I want to explore, I want to feel love, I want to improve in so many things. I don't know how to do so without help from my friends.
All the people who I left in High School haven't changed much, but a lot has happen that I feel I should have been there for. They are kind of like my children. I watch them, talk to them about problems, and make sure they are heading in the right direction. How do I do that without being there? I've started to get back into their lives.
I have more friends..but I feel like everyone is slowly drifting away. New friends are friends I can text, and talk to...but not about important things. They aren't as close as friends usually are. How do I fix that?
Hopefully I will figure it out. In the mean time, I'm just going keep pushing these walls away.
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